Mẹ

Mẹ qua chơi, vui quá!

Cả ngày hai mẹ con thủ thỉ với nhau bao nhiêu chuyện đời. Chuyện cũ có, chuyện mới có, thời sự có, chính trị có…nói chung chuyện gì hai mẹ con cũng thủ thỉ với nhau.

Sau chuyện thủ thỉ thì chuyển sang chuyện ăn. Từ bữa mẹ qua đến giờ cũng nấu cho mẹ ăn được mấy món ngon, bổ dưỡng.

Bì chay, nấm kho chay, mì nước, phở gà, cá nục kho…mà hai mẹ con toàn ăn rau cải…món gì cũng phải có rau mới chịu. Hôm qua còn ăn phở gà với rau muống chẻ nữa chứ. Đi chợ nông dân người ta bán rau muống ngon qua nên ham mua tới 4 bó, về nhà mẹ đem ra chẻ cọng nó lọn lọn ăn giòn ngon miệng. Lần đầu ăn thấy rất ngon, ngon hơn là bỏ giá nữa đó. Bữa nào ai ăn thử đi nha!

Đưa mẹ đi biển miền bắc Cali mẹ cũng thích. Thời tiết êm dịu, cảnh lại đẹp…đang dụ mẹ qua đây ở đó chớ. Giờ nghỉ hưu rồi thì phải đi chơi cho đã.

Còn mẹ thật là một điều may mắn mà mình có. Những chuyện không vui mấy năm đầu cưới nhau với O mà mẹ giận bây giờ đã thành quá khứ rồi. Nhờ vậy mẹ mới biết ông O nhà mình thương vợ, thương con, và thương cả mẹ vợ đến đâu. Hai người không cùng ngôn ngữ mà nói chuyện cũng ăn rơ, mình ít khi làm người thông dịch.

Thứ Năm mẹ đi xuống nam Cali thăm em Khôi. Tuần sau về thì mình và ông O dắt mẹ vô phố San Francisco. Ông O lấy ngày nghỉ đến 2 tuần ở nhà chở mẹ đi vòng vòng.

Cám ơn trời đất phụ hộ cho mẹ khoẻ mạnh hoài!

Tendril, 8.30.16

She texted me, just want to have someone to chat.

A lot has happened over the past few months. A new baby, moving to a far-away rural town with the boyfriend, paying rent and bills, taking the first semester of college classes…and did I just say…a new baby of less than six-month old?

She is going through a very rough time, but this is only the beginning.

Being pregnant at 17 could have been a mistake, but having a healthy baby and keeping him is the right thing she has done. I am glad she made that decision. But as always, decisions come with subsequent consequences. Hence, all the struggles that she is going through right now.

Is there a time machine available? I really want to rescue her, and taking her back in time so she could perhaps undo some of the choices she made. Even though having a baby could be a blessing for her right now despite all the struggles, but I wish she could have waited a little bit longer, lived her life a little bit more, seen more people…and explored a few more paths. My 20s was the best for my own cultivation of self identity and confidence, I wish that she could have a similar experience. *wishful thinking*

But perhaps the life right now was already chosen for her. I just pray that she will veer away from the path that her mother had taken.

…and somewhere along our long chat log, she said, “I miss having you here!”

somehow, I feel guilty, as if I have abandoned my own daughter.

Some of the last photos I took for her, it was supposed to be her senior photo, which I think did not make it to the yearbook.

Accomplishment of the week

I have been so busy now that PP has started the school year and Mom is here. Those late nights quiet time and sleeping in mornings are now luxury. Well, the insomniac in me still keep me up late at night but waking up early at 6:30 is now a routine. 

But yes, that’s not really my accomplishment of the week. I have something else more important to legitimately brag about on this blog. 

And that is…*drum roll*

I passed my driver knowledge and have officially become a California driver on Friday. I almost failed the test with five wrong answers, which was one more away from failing. 

*phew*

It was nerve racking, no less! And I studied the manual like nuts. When it comes to standardized test I am just not too confident. 

But I passed, just not with flying colors. 

And the best part that put me at ease more than passing the knowledge test was registering to vote as a California resident in November. I am so determined to get to the poll and vote this year to keep the incompetent, bigoted, and narcissist individual to never return to the presidential race again in his life. I cannot wait!

Mom’s first visit

So far so good; she enjoys Northern California very much.

At 76, she climbed the ridge with no hesitation, and walked two miles in one morning. Peanut and I trailed after her every single time.

Today I took her to a community garden since she likes exploring different kind of flowers. It was hot but we found shelters from the cool shades.