Election Day — I’m biting my nails!

I must admit that I am scare, afraid, anxious, worried…

I think I am more worried this election year than I had the previous two. At least the previous two elections the opposing party had candidates that were qualified and vested with personal characters that could lead America. This year, with Trump’s vulgar and foul mouth that spitting out hatred and fear…I, too, got caught up in the fear that if he wins, we are setting this country back to 100 years or more.

This is my 5th time voting in a presidential election, and I am glad that I registered soon enough in California to vote this year.

By the way, I have voted in three states: Minnesota, Massachusetts, and now California! Perhaps the next one we will be in Hawaii. 😀 Mr. O told me that he enjoys Hawaii so much that he suggested that we should move there. I told him, with the current rise of climate change, I don’t think I want to be on an isolated island…just in case the water rises and the island becomes part of the sea.
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I will keep updating my thoughts today about the ongoing state of news about the election. 😀

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Walking home from school, and walking pass a voting site, when PP noticed the American flag. He told me that he needed to say the Pledge of the Allegiance and then went off to stand next to it and recited the verses.

My kids are full-fledged Americans in their own right!

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I somehow feel like I might offend friends on FB if I write too much about my support for Hillary and the Democratic Party knowing that I have friends whom I do not share the same political views. Nevertheless, I don’t hold any grudges against them…and I hope likewise, they don’t hold grudges against me.

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And lets’ the counting begins at 4:00 p.m. PT!

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5:23 p.m. PT, blue states are starting to roll in!

Hillary — 44

Trump — 51

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6:00 p.m., according to CNN,

Hillary — 97

Trump — 84

Florida, a neck-to-neck…with Trump leading about 300,000 votes.

I knew that this state is always the key state when it comes to the electoral votes.

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7 p.m.

Mr. O is not around so I have no one with whom I share my anxiety. I opened a wine bottle and had a glass; need to keep myself sober.

I also distracted myself by cooking and giving the kids dinner.

Hillary — 104

Trump — 136

CNN reported.

Damnnn, where did he get all these electoral votes?

Things to distract myself the next hour or two: Clean the mess I made in the kitchen, give the kids shower and ready for bed time reading, get myself in the shower and wash my hair, and fold one basket of laundry for the kids.

Enough to get me through a few hours of anxiety.

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It’s 8 p.m., PT.

All polls are closed in California.

Hillary took Virginia and Colorado, according to CNN, and lost in OH.

Hillary — 190

Trump — 171

The kids are washed and ready for bed, but I have them clean their toys. The kitchen is still a mess.

I am sitting on hot coal.

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9:00 p.m.

I just ushered the kids to bed. They are still talking to each other.

I cannot believe that we have come to this state of fear, that Trump has 232 and Hillary has only 209. There is a sweeping red across the map of the U.S., and the stock market has dropped 700 points or more.

What is going on, America?

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9:20 p.m.

I am going clean the kitchen; it’s still a mess. My heart is sunken with a great loss.

And I accept defeat. Next step is…learning to live with Trump in the White House; and not to watch the news for the next for years.

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11:15 p.m.

I stayed up late tonight. The kitchen is semi-clean; I just shoveled all the dishes into the machine, and left big dirty pots and pans on the stove and will wash it tomorrow.

Good thing I have Linh to vent my misery and frustration. We are on the same page!

I am still proud to be an American, regardless of the outcomes.

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